I’ve been emotionally in limbo here at the Parentals. Trying to shake off the restlessness and think ‘new life’, ‘new dwelling’, and wobbling between roles. And with these thoughts are annoying physical symptoms that make me distract me from doing anything truly relaxing. Could I have carpal tunnel from blogging since Feb of 04? Whatever, maybe it’ll just go away.
We brought so much stuff up here it makes me wonder what we will employ a moving company for? Nah, we got a million boxes in our garage for them. And my couches, I miss my couches. Mom fixed up my old apartment in the basement of there 1906 travel lodge home to be a little living space/studio area for our family. That will be very nice, if I can shake off this weirdness and get back my motivation.
I know that I will shake this off. I know I will feel better and fall into a role where I will feel less like a moocher and more like a helper. Where I will have a job and help out friends. Where I will attend functions and play with my kids at playgrounds that become familiar. Right now, I’m a blob. Right now I am decompressing and trying to wrap my head around life here and not just vacation. I know tommorrow is only Sunday, but I want to start real life real soon.