I’m learning to love myself. Not just on the outside because that changes day to day depending on what we ate, how much we slept, if we got a bad haricut (which I did). But I’m trying to remember that I am someone unique. I am a companion worth having. I am warm, compassionate, a good listener, loyal. I have never really thought these things of myself. I always pointed my finger to someone who was more so, but if I believe that I am these things, I will act out of that belief. I work on being a good listener, cuz I talk too much. I work on being warm, even though I’m not a real huggy person. I want to abolish my selfishness to be compassionate and a willing servant. These are tough tough goals for me. And I feel I need to spread the apologies out like thick fresh icing on a birthday cake. I’m sorry for not being the first one to offer help. I’m sorry for not listening enough and talking too much about me. I’m sorry for being a loner and not inviting you over. I’m sorry for not praying for you, hugging you, just being there to watch a kid or two. The list continues. But I do want to be something new. I want to be a woman who is a good companion to everyone who call me a friend. I want to do this to serve God, to make my marriage better, to be a better mother. It is all wrapped up together. Today I may be busy, but I always want to be thinking how I can serve the next loved one. Lord, take my eyes off of me and give me that confidence to just be your hands and feet.